I Want This To Be Easier For My Family And Friends

I’m not sure where to begin with this one but it is something I have been thinking about and has come up a few times recently. My family and friends. I know so many of you are struggling and I don’t know how to help. Not that anyone is looking to me for help but I wish I could make this easier for all of you. I don’t know what to say to make you feel better or give you confidence that I’m strong enough to handle what comes my way.

There Are Good Days

It’s tough for me to say when I’m having a bad moment (or a good vs. great moment). For many reasons. I don’t want to focus on any of the bad but those feelings are as real as the feelings of strength. I don’t have too many moments that I want to curl up in bed and sleep for days but I have them.

Chemo Is Scary

I’m worried about how I will respond to the chemo. Not in the sense that I’m worried it will work but what the experience will be like for me. Physically for my body. There is no way of knowing until we get started. Another reason I don’t want to focus on the scary, sad stuff is because it’s tough for me to say any of that to you and make you sad about this. Hopefully, that makes sense. Having said that, I know that plenty of you are hurting and scared. It’s ok to feel that. The fact that you feel that is touching to me. I feel loved.