It’s Not The Leaving, It’s the Knowing That’s Difficult

I’m leaving for chemo in Houston again today. It’s been a hard week already. I really don’t want to go is what I keep saying. But in truth, going to Houston isn’t the problem. I don’t want to have Friday through Wednesday next week because I know how grueling it is..

Inner Peace

Something happened yesterday afternoon that I felt better, calmer. I had been telling myself that I need to choose my attitude. If I keep saying I don’t want to, then of course it will be harder. But that can be difficult knowing what is ahead of me, but my mind can’t be thinking one thing while my body is doing another so I need to get both on the same page.  Not going isn’t an option so I’m working on changing my thought process to find inner peace.

How Different 3 Miles Can Be Just A Week Apart

This morning I ran my 3-mile route with Jenn and I felt a little better after that. Thinking that one week from now the Wednesday morning walk I do will be the start to me feeling better helped make it seem closer to it being over for this week. Light at the end of the tunnel. The speed and times may be considerably different one week to the next but the slower walk week might have more impact.

I don’t know why this trip has been that much harder but it has. I will update tomorrow from chemo.