I recently wrote about the reminder calls I get a week before my appointments start at MD Anderson. Tonight those calls will start. I’m very anxious about going next week. Part of me wishes I was going tomorrow and part is OK waiting until next week.

I have a strong feeling that they will tell me no more chemo. I’m not sure if it’s a feeling or such a strong desire to hear those words. I can tell you that I will be borderline devastated if I don’t hear them say I’m done. However, I can also tell you that I’m prepared. I know I CAN do more, I just don’t WANT to. The week after seems to be getting worse. Again, I’m not sure if it is or I just have done it so many times that I know what to expect.

Why Wait To go To The Gym?

I have talked about my fitness level changes over the past 7 months. I decided to work on changing that this week. I haven’t been working out with my trainer. I have been running and doing Pilates but feel like I need some weights back in the mix. I think subconsciously I have stopped and have told myself I will start again after chemo. This week something clicked and I thought “what am I waiting for?”. I’m losing fitness and doing weights a few times during the cycles is far better than doing nothing at all. I scheduled an appointment and needless to say, had to cancel for a Dr appointment. The week isn’t over so I will get  a work out in before the end of the week and hopefully another on Monday before going to Houston.

This weekend I am running a 5K with Ethan. He wants to improve his time from the ME STRONG 5K. I love that! He will be waiting at the finish line for me but I’m excited he wants to run. Many of my friends are running the half marathon at the same time. We will hang out and cheer for everyone after we finish. Should be fun.

Hoping For A Headstand

My appointment with Dr. Westin is at 10:30 central time on Thursday the 15th. They do have a tentative appointment scheduled for chemo at 1:30. I will do my best to blog after the appointment so everyone knows what is going on. If they say no more chemo there is a good chance Barbara and I will do headstands in the lobby together. I’m sure we will ask a stranger to take our picture so I will post it. Be watching and hoping for a headstand!